To many people out there being smart and attractive is a way of life and I must say I do enjoy watching them strut and show of. But the wrapper doesn't make the food taste better and many times that sexy lady inside is filled with worms and all sorts of nasty things. But for me I learned a lesson early in life and that is not to be noticed. When u see me u don't see an advanced it man who has seen more than a hundred other it men and a million other people. Bill Gates, the young kid, is recognized everywhere but me I walk among you and you don't know what I have done, or seen or experienced. And that is fine. I have never signed an autograph or been recognized for some wonderful thing I have done. Because as I said early on I found if u were special or at least thought you were you became a target. And targets often get hit by arrows and they hurt. So instead of people expecting things from me they look down on me. And I chuckle and say to myself if only you new what I know you would run screaming into the night. And so I go where brave men fear to go hanging over the edge hanging on with one hand. To say that this life is lonely is a vast understatement. After struggling up the highest hill u find yourself alone. No one to share that sweet taste of victory as you become better at what you do than anyone else. I have never had a role model to follow, I have never been encouraged by a mentor no the thing I have is persistence. No matter what the odds or the challenge I struggle forward falling down for sure but always getting up and struggling on and in the end tattered and torn I reach my destination. Maybe the price was to high as many times that is so true but somewhere buried inside me is a force which never gives up, maybe rests now and then but never gives up.